Just Thoughts

Big Boss Blues

How often do we feel helpless? Do we WANT to feel helpless? Why?

There are moments in life when it seems that you are making everything right (or at least is seems so), performing on top level and getting other people’s compliments, attracting attention, and your success is being envied, yet…something’s amiss.

I’m extremely goal-oriented, a perfectionist, a commander, somebody that can easily motivate people and bring them to success. I love to speak up to defend what I care about. I fight for the ones I love like a tigress. I protect the ones I care about, family or no family. Yet sometimes, I just want to feel weak. I want to give up. I want to be cared about and feel protected, too.

Don’t get me wrong. Being strong is great. I love the feeling . But big girls cry, too. When others don’t see.

And I think at times we all WANT to cry and feel helpless. The moment when you feel that there’s nothing you can do, and you fully depend on someone else, this very moment you realize you don’t like it. You don’t like being weak. You don’t like depending on anyone. You don’t like just contemplating. You want to make your own decisions and…become strong again. You need action.

It’s a funny feeling.

Obviously we can’t make the world perfect. We try and when it doesn’t always go our way we step back and hide. Only to gain more strength and start fighting again:-)

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I love this saying.

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